A John Mayer night

I can trace your footsteps now.  I can go back to where I left in the book. I could walk the lane I once traveled.  But you are gone, and I feel it in the air. It’s that feeling of the flame extinguishing in a dark room, when the soul of a man leaves it to planes beyond our contemplation.  Yes, I feel you’ve left. But I am no longer sinking. I am no longer the kid who chased that stranger with the Jay Gatsby smile, I am no longer the kid who’d burn his eyes out reading. I am no longer the kid who’d try to protect the flame from the gusts of winds life blew. What I am now is what you’ve made me. I’m that ash that falls from a burning cigarette. I am that long sigh before you notice that your coffee is almost finished. I am not the smell of rain, but the earthy soil that absorbs. I can no longer love what I loved before. I am what you made me. I am, exhausted.

Drowning

Drowning in a river,
Too numb to even shiver.
A noose around my neck,
A cry going unheard.
A bullet lost it's way,
Reaching out for you,
I'm drowning and i'm crying
So please come and save me,
To my home, please take me.
I'm drowning and I'm frowning,
You promised me love,
You left your soul in me.
Tears rush to break,
The prison that I made,
Please come back, please do love,
There's comfort in your arms,
Let me snatch the love I lost,
What had it even cost,
All my life and all my love,
Painully I will shove,
No love lost, No battle sounds,
No longer does my heart pound,
No love to be found,
So don't come around,
No places left to go,
No wings left to nurse,
You levied a curse.
Let me die alone,
Dimly our star shone.
And in that moment of time,
I committed the crime,
No love lost, no love found,
Let me disappear to not be found

Dance and Sway

Dance, and dance,
And sway, and sway.
Turn,  and turn,
For you, ill pray,
That every step,
And every song,
The lonely nights,
The hazy storm,
Will pass without,
Like a gentle breeze,
So no longer fear,
The wrath of any,
They're are still to come,
Fiercer many,
So dance and dance,
And sway and sway,
I'll pray for you,
To keep the demons away.

Dear Mom- Prose and Poetry

Jennifer opened Daniel’s letter as fast as she could. Cancer had left her with little strength and her fingers trembled more often now. Daniel never spoke since the day he learnt that she wasn’t going to be around after a while. Nobody told him, but he could see it in the doctor’s eyes. The horror of his soon to come reality. They say our eyes are the window to the soul, Daniel had seen his truth. She slowly took the letter out and unfolded it and tears marked her eyes before she could even start reading.

Dear Mom,

I look at the big green tree,

It stands so strong and tall,

And yet i see the leaves,

Like feathers they still fall.

Why would Mr.Tree,

Let go of all his leaves?

He stands so strong and tall,

And yet the leaves fall?

Jennifer smiled as tears trickled down her cheeks. She pulled Daniel into her bosom and broke down. Inconsolable. And yet, Daniel’s beating heart against her own calmed her like no medicine ever did. She looked out of the widow and looked at the view autumn had graced her with. The park was beautifully covered in hues of red , yellow and orange. She brought him up close and smiled and said-

Dear Daniel,

Look again at Mr,Tree,

He stands so brave and tall,

Yet he sets the leaves free,

So they may dance and fall.

That’s how life works my dear,

We come and play our parts,

We dance and cry and laugh,

So what you have to learn

A part you have to earn,

Come and put up a nice show,

Holding on and letting go.